Tuesday, November 24, 2015

New training video given to me

I was told I need to go back to basics from time to time, so I was given this video by my sissy-trainers. I am to watch this on repeat for an hour every other day as part of my nightly, video training where I have to dress up, put myself in bondage and gag myself and watch the prescribed videos.  Here is the new video:



Monday, November 9, 2015

I need to be abused during rough sex....




If you have me at your mercy, doesn't matter if you are woman or a man, I know that you will abuse me while you fuck/rape me.  It won't matter how much I struggle or beg, I ma just fuckmeat to you. No rights, no will, just a submissive sissy who deserves to be stupid, sissy-bondage-cock-whore that i am...



Right before you rape me....perhaps you would like to listen to me beg?  Or to beg for the sbuse?






Perhaps I need to be choked while being anally raped by you.  Would you like to hear me moan and strangle while you fill my sissy ass and make me pleasure you?


Or perhaps I should be on my knees and be orally raped for hours and hours and hours....



And when you are done raping me...are you going to torture me with breathplay until I pass out...and then start all over when I come to?

My name is Stephanie and I am training to be a sissy-bondage-cock-whore. I am currently in my apartment, dressed and bound and gagged on my bed, waiting to be kidnapped and/or raped by anyone who walks through my front door which is open slightly right now...please, please come and abuse me and make me your sissy-bondage-cock-whore...man or woman, it doesn't matter as I have no rights anyway...







Sunday, October 11, 2015

Slap Me...I Deserve It...


Part of what comes with training in the Program is to accept punishment. As a sissy-bondage-cock-whore...if I disobey, fail at a task, or at my owner's whim...I am to be punished and I should take it willingly.

While I am not a pain slut, I do enjoy the sting, humiliation and the degradation being slapped can bring.....being helpless and knowing I am so worthless that my stupid sissy face needs the abuse.




The there is always the punishment of being on my knees and being reluctant to having my sissy mouth fucked...and being slapped can always be a good motivator.



But sometimes, you may just want to abuse me. My training forbids me to fight back.  That I should take the humiliation and learn to crave it.



Being slapped in the face is also a good tool to show me that you are the boss and owner of me.  That I am nothing but fuck meat for you, and that you remind me while you rape me.


And sometimes, slapping is the alternative to what I really want: cock in mouth or my sissy ass. But the slap serves to remind me that I am being punished as you hit me and make me watch you fuck another sissy's mouth.



But my confession is that I love to be slapped in the face.  For all of the reasons above and also because...I crave it.  I NEED it.   It turns me on.  So please let me have it, show me that you are my owner.  Humiliate me.  Abuse me.  Hurt me and make me your little, slap-happy,  sissy-bondage-cock-whore.



Oh, thank you, Sir!!  May I please, please, PLEASE have another!!!



Saturday, October 3, 2015

A toilet stall in my future....



One of my programmers, Damselgrabber, sent me this picture from his cell. He has not told me the location of this picture other than it is near or at a truck stop in Baltimore.

He then told me that in the near future, I will be sitting on that toilet, dressed, bound and gagged.  He will take a few pictures of me before leaving me there. I will be chained to the pipe behind the toilet as well.

He is going to post notes, one inside the stall and one outside,on the door. The notes will say, "The bound and gagged sissy is willing to be face-fucked." 

Once he is done taking pictures, I will be left there for two hours. I may be sucking cock, or I may just be left there. Either way, Damselgrabber has suggested that he might fuck my mouth anyway when he comes back for me.

When I know when I will be there, I will post the location and times I will be in this stall, bound, gagged, helpless and turned on by the prospect of sucking cock like the sissy-bondage-cock-whore that I am....